So I've read a few of everyone else blogs on coming out and I thought I'd share my experience to see if it could help anyone out.

I had a few "coming outs". My orientation often was determined by who my friends were at the time. Growing up in a small Southern Baptist mountain town then moving to a just as closed minded small city left me with quite a warped opinion on homosexuality that some times affects me even now. I was fourteen and a freshman in high school when I started dating my first girlfriend (who is still currently one of my best friends). I was home schooled at the time and spent all of my time off with her. I thought if none of my other friends saw me with her or if they never got the chance to ask me about it they couldn't judge me. I isolated myself to stay in the closet for just a little longer. This didn't help, all it accomplished was irritating me causing me to continuously play with my girlfriends heart. Needless to say we broke up and I claimed my slip of my true self was just a phase. After ending it with her I started to date guys even though I was more interested in some of my friends, at this point I was back in public school and discovering that bisexuality was far more accepted by my peers than I had ever thought before. So I came out, only to my friends never to my family. I claimed to be bisexual because it seemed like that was the only way to be accepted because everyone just figured you would kiss a girl but spend the rest of your life with a guy. During this claim I started dating a long term friend off and on until I was invited to a Christian youth group by a lot of my friends. In this group I was told it was okay that I used to date girls I just shouldn't any longer. So I did the only thing I thought was logical I broke up with my girlfriend and started dating one of the boys leading the group. I was miserable! I finally had the acceptance from all of my friends but they weren't accepting who I really was. After a little less than a year of "dating" this boy he dumped me, his excuse was his mom didn't approve, three days later he's dating someone else. I was hurt! Despite the fact I wasn't in love with the boy I still loved him, and he brushed me off like it was nothing. Torn I started playing with the idea of dating two friends, my ex girlfriend who I left for acceptance or my best friend who was a boy because then I could still be accepted by society. I chose my best friend, I continuously made passes at him before giving in and asking him out. He turned me down, telling me it wasn't what either of us wanted and it would just ruin a perfectly good friendship. I knew he was right so I finally did what I wanted and went back to my ex girlfriend. After that I knew that there was no going back, I came out to my mom who took the news surprisingly well but in turn outed me to my father and the rest of my family which is resulting in a few struggles but most of them are trying and that's the biggest thing to keep in mind, they may not like it and it may be awkward and difficult but if someone loves you like family and friends should, they will try!

I love everyone in this group and I can be here for any of you if you need me just note me or comment on something I've done. You're never alone.
~Ookami