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March 12, 2014 at 9:11pm

Can I have your attention please? I am not going away, but you're welcome to walk out the door. What i have to say, may not be enjoyable. For too many years i have kept quiet. But now i have a microphone, I HAVE A VOICE. There is no escape, I demand and now have your full attention

I am transgender, and I'm here to speak out. I am not doing this for attention, or to trick guys into sleeping with me. We are not sex crazed maniacs. So when you see me in the washroom, shut the fuck up. I'm trying to take a piss, not see up your skirt. Contrary to popular belief, we are human fucking beings.

Everyone wants to try me out for just a little but. But what's so hard about taking me home to mom and dad. Good enough for your bed, but not the dinner table. I am not your dirty little secret. You fellows would be surprised at how many of your friends take a pass at me when you're not around. So what's so difficult about keeping that "faggot" to yourself?

Know what's truly scary? Going out the door, changing rooms, and all these gender barriers. Equality shouldn't be a thing, it should just be. There is a huge difference between asking my sexuality, and assuming it. This is a gender change, not a preference change. No wait, i lied. This is a correction. I've been playing catch up since day one.

You have no idea how frustrating it is having to constantly explain the gender marker on your identification card. If you're too comfortable, you're doing something wrong. If you've never fought for something, you've never tried. The unknown  walk the earth. So get off your ass and be someone, and leave me the fuck alone. I'm just trying to live my life.

This is not a choice. The crisis of being trans is black and white. Life, and death. Too many of my brothers and sisters choose that final solution. Lose a son, or embrace a daughter. I know it's hard to change all those memories of your darling baby boy. You don't have to. But turn your back, and you never understood love.

Today i stand before you, liberated and free. This skin is finally my own. I can take back the rental. For the first time ever, i looked into a mirror, and not glaze over some moving image of a stranger. They call this gender dysphoria. But i am not confused! Not anymore. It's more like gender euphoria, nirvana, shambhala.

Wake up! We do exist and i'm nothing like the image hollywood would portray me as. Try to look the other way, but it is going to get harder and harder to ignore this six foot tall tranny. I'm going to rape your bigotry, the same way your ignorance ruined my childhood. Fear me! Because i no longer fear you. I'm going to take these streets back in the name of acceptance. One person at a time I am going to show you; i am not a threat to your manliness, to your religion, or your fucking family values. If this is the face of evil, i weep that i cannot show you heaven.

Right here is the result of an extremely conservative upbringing. My friends will not disown me if they see me in a skirt. They showed me true love. And with them behind me, we can change the world. So fuck Money, fuck materialism, fuck imposed values, fuck right and wrong, and above all; fuck bending hate! I will not rest, so long as another person suffers. Even if i do not share your rights. This freak has woken up.


Monologue i wrote ages ago. Figure i should put it online somewhere before i lose the paper.
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PrinceDumuzi Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014
What microphone?

Beautifully written.
DrawingMayshi Featured By Owner May 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well... I don't want to sound negative or anything like that & I think it's really powerfully written, but isn't it just too much? I get a bit vulgar feel out of it.
Psykan Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014
As a straight guy who fully supports human rights (of which "LGBT rights" are just one part), I got your back, too~  Something I have noticed about the issue of "equal rights," from my readings and observation of people and their individual values and perspectives, is the controversial nature of the issue as a whole.  I can't speak for anyone else, but there's a part I've included in my own perspective of "equal rights" that nobody really seems to least, not explicitly:

"Equal rights" means treating every person you meet and interact with as a human being, while keeping in mind that you are also human. You can't exempt yourself from THAT.
SarahTriceratops Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
My therapist basically gave me the same advice today xD
Psykan Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
I'm not a therapist and will never be one because of a part of my personal values: I will not accept rewards or a salary for helping people as I do naturally.  This is something I can do anytime and anywhere, for anyone.  For me, there is no greater reward than the happiness I see in people after I show them TRUE kindness - something that's pretty rare to find nowadays.  I can't speak for anyone else, but by nature, I'm a kind and compassionate person, and I can prove it.  c:

Something I'm able to do naturally is connect and empathize with people AND animals on an insane level.  But of course, explaining it wouldn't do justice - you'd have to experience it for yourself to understand...and many people already have.  I consider it a natural "power" and not a natural "gift," - not because something few people can do (at the least, I don't know anyone personally who can do it the way I can), but because it can be harmful if I misuse it.  By nature, I'd never, ever hurt anyone intentionally, but I'm still vigilant because accidents can happen.  If you've heard the saying "With great power comes great responsibility," you can understand what I'm talking about...but I prefer a more "inclusive" perspective to that truth: with ANY degree of power comes a proportional degree of responsibility.
VampireHunterAmanda Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:heart: Here's one gay FTM who will always support the T in LGBT. Doing a panel at my college tomorrow and I'll likely be the only transman again.
Aki-nna Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Professional Artist
Holy crap, i forgot i posted this. Just reading the comments now, thanks everyone! I've been considering performing this exact piece again. Maybe make a video :)
o0-kanra-0o Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconclappingplz: one of the best ive read :D
Fall-Like-Angels Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This honestly moved me to tears...
It's kind of scary to be anon-binary person in this society. Even if acceptance of homosexuality is going up...that isn't.

I'm glad you're wearing you own skin now. ^^

For now I'm happy knowing my close friends can understand 'genderfluid' even if i'm not ready to tell my parents.
CapriceVaudeville Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, I thought we lived in a free world where anything is possible , but yet people won't let you wear what you want to or be the way you want to...said.
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TheOwl68 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This moved me to tears~ Empowering, inspiring and courageous :heart: Thank you for sharing this!
LegolasGimli Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student Filmographer
:iconsupertighthugplz:That was beautifulQuQ
altair9844 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well said :)
stjimmyrocks Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student General Artist
:iconiloveyouplz: :XD: :iconlgbtplz:
FatefullyKinetic Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I have lived in an area with a lot of trans* people, and I have served those same people in retail.  It breaks my heart that my open acceptance of everyone is SUCH a break from the norm that my brothers and sisters have to feel relieved to meet me.  I couldn't help but cry reading this.

An attempt at emoteyness... Shoulder cry :spinhug: I do not know you, but know I love you.
bxnnibel Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Mother of god this is beautiful.
great job.Lovely Shoujo Emoji (Huggy Hug) [V2] 
PepstarsWorld Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Professional Artist
Hollyleaf-Sam Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
clap clap Clap high 
DrDrace Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
...thank you for standing up for well as yourself*hugs*
Rose-Eclipse Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*Stands and Claps*
Weather i count you brother or sister 
in lifes name we should all walk in love not hate

So again i aplaude you for letting yourself be whom you are
your family can just deal with the facts 
SwordmasterHalle Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
*claps* i love this
Emilimia Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014
very captivating ^^ i'd just read an article on being transgender and now understand that it can be quite dangerous in some communities. such a shame. :( life's already difficult enough for everyone, no? i've always been fascinated with transgenderism and have loved the idea of it ever since i was little. man, why can't more poeople get like me?XD
SakuraCrystalKatana Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Woah~ This is awesome.
Just know you have my acceptance for who you are.
MandiPope Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is extremely powerful and well written.  Just know you have more than my acceptance for who you are, you have my love.

ZADRgirl2113 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Amen to that! 
MandyB82 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014
right ON! :highfive:
Jnhotboy Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
EPIC! I LOVE! How strong this feels....I am not transgendered and I don't claim to understand what that part of our community go through on a daily basis but I do know all the trans member men and women I know are indeed as strong as this monologue feels. Maybe the rest of the world could learn something...... 
Alcoholic-Cat Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I love this. 
I'm coming to a point where I think, or just.. slightly have a feeling that I'm Transgender aswell. I don't want to come out right away; I keep doubting myself, thinking it's just a phase, but i'm sure it's not. But for now I wait, and think about everything. 
Aki-nna Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Professional Artist
Best advice i ever got when i was first coming to that same point in my life; go slow, and take your time! It took me 6 years to get to this point, and when i made the choice to live, i never would of wanted it to take this long. but it was worth it :)
Alcoholic-Cat Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Alright. :) I am still working on how to tell my parents about this, and ask them for a gender therapist. It's gonna be a long ride for this, haha.. Thanks. :)
Fyreman666 Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
*Slowly claps, impressed* In truth, I only skimmed this, but the title drew my attention. I love the monologue.
Kishigo Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014
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